No. 69: Annoyance"The thing others don't understand is that I never was a boy, I just looked like one for a while." ~ Jems Fina.
What if...I won'tCan't love youI have someoneSomeone I love very muchAnd yetFrom the moment I met youThere was somethingIf I knewKnew there was that chanceWould I have chosen him over you?PerhapsPerhaps notConfusionConfusion and fear cloud my thoughtsBringing forth your figureThis is wrongBut I can't change the way I feelI can only hide it deeperWatching you in secretThose small moments I allow my mind to wander.WonderingWhat ifWhat if it was me?
No. 96: In the StormThe storm outsidePerfectly matches the storm in my headThe roaring of thunderThe screams of angerThe pouring rainThe tears unshedThe flash of lightningThe flashes of confusionThe beautiful forms in which the raindrops takeFlowing and gentleYet heavy and darkLike my heart, like my emotionsThe confusion swirling withinLike the rapid rising of the tides